Saturday, 9-5-98
I'm not quite sure what to write about. I've had such mixed feelings about everything lately. I did go to Seattle, like I said I probably would. Mike came down on August 21st, and then on Saturday the 22nd, we went to Yellowstone for the day, because Mike wanted to see a buffalo (which I might add, he did get to see his buffalo..) It was pretty amazing there, and I definately plan on going back, probably later this month to meet Jason, if those plans haven't changed. Anyhow, then on Sunday the 23rd we drove back to Seattle, and the 24th was Mike's 19th birthday. We drove up to Canada with Christian so he could order a drink (and they didn't even card him, he was mad) and the waitresses all sang to him.. something about how he's a 'great big beautiful guy' lol. It was hillarious. :) Anyhow, I was out in Seattle for 2 weeks, like I said. I just got home today actually. I got to see everyone again, which was great, and I got to know everyone better, which is both good and bad. Bad because I really like those people there a lot and I don't know when/if I'll ever see them again. So that kind of sucks. I am keeping in touch with a few people, so that's good. I miss Mike.. *Sigh* I don't know what else to say about that.. Things didn't quite work as I wanted them to, but I will accept things as they are, and make the best of it. I've been really depressed
lately.. I can't sleep, I don't feel good, I have so much on my mind. I'm going back to the doctors to get a blood test very soon, just to make sure I'm not having liver problems again, because I've been feeling so terrible, and I've had a few of the symptoms of the liver problems again. This worries me, and so do other things. I don't know. I guess I just have to take things one step at a time and figure them out as I go. I'm going to be going to my stained glass class on Wednesday, finally.. It's going to be great to finally be able to start working with it again. It's been so long. I hope I can remember how correctly! :) I have projects I have to make for people who are buying them, so. Anyhow, enough rambling for now.. :)
Thursday, 9-10-98
Whee. Life sure is interesting. My life has taken an interesting turn, and I have a lot of things to think about and decide. I'm not sure what's going to happen, and I'm afraid that at this point I cannot elaborate. But, I'm sure I'll figure out what's best, and that things will turn out alright. My liver seems to be fine. They still found traces of stubstances from my liver in my urine (lovely thought huh?) but not as much as before. And the blood tests showed no problems at all. So hopefully I'm past all that, but it's hard to say. Life sure is confusing, heh. =)
Thursday, 9-17-98
Things are going alright. Stressful, but alright. I'm still not sure what to do with my life, with myself, or what my future holds. I'm very confused about everything, but I know that I can handle things.. And that it won't be easy, but somehow I'll do it. Shawn's birthday was the 15th, and Dad called, and I had a talk with him. Which was hard, but it went better than I expected. Mom's been out of town since halfway through last week, (Wednesday), it's now Thursday, and I think she'll be home today. I have another doctor appointment tomorrow. Mom's going back out of town on Sunday until the next Saturday. She's going to DC. I kinda wish I could go with her, but I have stuff I need to take care of here. I talked to Jenny yesterday and she says we must go shopping. It looks like I'm probably going to be moving so she wants to go before I leave. Also her dad owes us dinner. *Grins* As a late birthday present, and I mean *late*. I should give him a call and let him in on the details of my life. I'm sure he'll be fairly surprised. As for Mike, I hope to see him soon. I love him and care about him a lot, and I want things to work out. And I miss Seattle, and everyone out there. Such great people. *smile* Anyhow, not much else to write about. =)
Tuesday, 9-22-98
I went to Jenny's house for a bit today. Nothing too
exciting, though I enjoy spending time with her and Kalob. :) Was only there for a couple of hours though. I'm so bored. Even though Mom and I don't always get along, when she's out of town I'm so bored. :) At least when we get along we talk, and joke, and go to dinner, and stuff. It's fun. I talked to Erin earlier, and yesterday. She's doing ok, though she's got a cold I guess. She still doesn't have much energy. I can understand that. I talked to Mike yesterday too. Life sucks though, seriously sucks. I don't know what I'm going to do. *Sigh* Oh well.
Friday, 9-25-98
Haven't really done all that much of interest the last couple of days. I've been sitting around being bored doing nothing. Pretty exciting huh? Yeah, I thought so. ;p Jenny started her new job yesterday, so she'll probably be more busy in the near future, and Erin is so
tired these days she doesn't leave her house. Though I admit I miss seeing her, I haven't seen her in over a month, since like the 11th of August. Hopefully she'll be able to get some energy sometime soon! My life is pretty confusing. I still don't know what I'm going to do. I might be moving.. but I think already said that earlier in the month. I'm being pushed to make a decision, and I don't like it. I mean, I had my mind made up, but other circumstances keep making me wonder if it's the best thing for me to do, or not. I guess in
time I'll figure it out. I would like to be here in November when Erin has her baby. So we'll see.
Tuesday, 9-29-98
Things have been going alright. I was up way too late the last couple of nights, and slept in way too long. But that's ok I suppose. I have a doctors appointment tomorrow, which should suck, but at least I'm getting it out of the way. Mom and I have been getting along rather well, I suppose I'm still bitchy at times *grin* But, I mean, for the most part we're getting along and just talking etc. Which is a good thing. Her and I made dinner last night.. well I mainly made it, but you know. And the night before that we went out to eat. Was lots of fun. :) Shawna apparently ran away again.
I wish she'd stop doing that, she's going to screw her life up. And she's about to lose credit in school I guess =/ Jenny's doing alright.. Her, Kalob, and Josh are moving probably sometime in the near future. They definately move too much, but they have a very good reason for moving this time. Kalob is so cute. Though I haven't been there since sometime last week. Jenny's working at Wal-Mart now. We should definately get together sometime though. Plus her dad still owes me and her dinner. He promised. :) Tomorrow I also have my stained glass class.. which I might add, my mom's actually in town this week, so I will have a ride. She won't forget like Shawn did last week ;) I have to finish mom's coyote, and then get started on that unicorn one for that guy who's buying it. Must have done by Christmas. It'll be done *way* before, but that's ok. Best to get it done and over with. *Smile* It kind of sucks, becuase when I made mine, I made it with a carosel horse, and this guy wanted a unicorn, so we had to look for unicorns.. and it turns out I *really* like the unicorn one. *Sigh* Maybe I'll have to make another one for myself. In purples maybe... *ponders* Erm, anyhow. :) I'm rambling, obviously. I dunno why, I just felt like I should write for awhile.
Ric is still in college. He called the other day, was the first time we'd talked to him in awhile. I guess he's coming home this weekend. Which for once I don't mind. He's not *so* bad when he's not around all the time *grins* I'll have to make dinner for him. ;) I know he's a poor starving college kid ;) *laugh*
I'm sooo bored. I'm sitting here, working on my webpage, sort of talking on IRC, sort of looking at
webpages.. etc.. Maybe I should see if Mom wants to make dinner again.. That'll give me something to do *laugh* This is pathetic. Jenny's working right now, actually, so I can't call her.. and Erin's always tired. Jennifer is never home.. Shawna ran away.. I think you get my point. Oh well. That's life, and I'm used to not going anywhere for the most part, sad as it may be that I have no life! :)
I haven't talked to Chris in awhile. He has no long
distance anymore, so if I wish to speak to him, I must call *him* in California. I think I might give him a call sometime soon. He's helped me out with my problems a lot lately, and he listens to me bitch. So that helps :) I'm so glad him and I are able to be friends still. For awhile I wasn't sure we could be.. But we can. And I'm so happy. :) As for Mike, I talked to him yesterday, I think. He's going to call me after my doctors appointment tomorrow.. of course, it better be either before or after my stained glass class or I won't be here :) He also wants me to consider coming out to Seattle for a few days in a week or two.. so I'm supposed to let him know what I decide. :) That depends on what I need to do around here. So we'll see.
Okay, definately enough mindless rambling. I'm bored with this. :)
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