Friday, 5-1-98
Today has been okay. I got to visit with my surprise
visitor last night.. it was great. I'm hoping to see him again today =) So that's the highlight of my life right now. I'm feeling like shit, getting worse again. It never fails. I dunno, I can't imagine 6 months of this. It best not take that long! =) I'm trying to update my page a bit more today, so I thought I'd update this section, although I really have nothing to write.. so :) Bye ;)
Sunday, 5-3-98
I'm so tired of being sick!! It's driving me crazy! =) Oh well, nothing I can do about it I guess. I'll probably go to the doctor tomorrow, since it'll be Monday and my doctor will be back in town. Plus my
throat hurts real bad, and my voice is gone. So I'm guessing that something is wrong with my throat ;p (gee, what was my first clue?!) :) I'm so glad Chris
was in town this weekend. He was my surprise =) Not that he came here just to see me.. but well. He came in Thursday night, and he stayed that night at my house. Which was great =) And then he left Friday morning and I didn't see him again until Saturday, when he came over before he left. He drove to California (that's why he came in town, to get his truck) When he came over to say bye, he planned on leaving right away, but he ended up sticking around for a couple of hours with me, talking laughing, just having fun. I miss him already. He wanted me to go with him while he drove to California, and then send me home after we got there (he got in today, Sunday) But I didn't go. I would have,
except I didn't want him to have to pay for my way home, and because I was sick I knew mom wouldn't have let me. But I think it would have been good for him to
have someone to keep him company when driving that far.
But he called me 2 times last night, and he called me today when he got into California, so I know he's alright. I miss him though :( Even more, now that I got to be around him again. God, it sucks. Oh well huh? I'll have to live. And besides, at least I got to spend time with him. Oh, and we talked a lot more about me going to see him in June. If I can get the money, and I'm healthy by then, looks like I'm going. He even told me there's all these places he wants to take me while I'm out there. I can't wait! =) June seems like way too far away. Hopefully time goes by quickly, but I know that while I'm sick, it won't ;) Bleh ;)
I don't think there's much else to write about at this point. I don't have anything exciting going on, hell, I barely get out of the house ;) I'm supposed to start this stained glass class on Wednesday, I guess. And I have to take Lacy to the vet on Thursday night so she can get spayed. I'll pick her up Friday, and she's going to be miserable. Poor girl. Enough stupid rambling.
Wednesday, 5-6-98
I'm still sick. Go figure huh? It never fails. I'm starting to feel like I'll never get better *grumbles* I'm also bored out of my mind and hungry. Hrm. I should find food. Anyhow, Erin can't go the stained glass class with me (Which was supposed to start tonight, but isn't starting until next Wednesday), so now it looks like Jenny's going to go with me. It should be fun, Jenny seems to be looking forward to it. I'm going to be so glad to have her there with me. It would suck taking the class by myself. Anyhow, Chris and I got into an argument the other night. He was drunk and he called me and was talking about wanting to marry me, and I told him no, because I felt that we needed to work out a lot of problems before we got married. And he was drunk and not listening to reasoning and got all pissed off at me. He was like, furious about it. He couldn't believe that I'd say no =/ He was real mean about it, and it sucked big time. He did call me yesterday to apologize, which I accepted, but I dunno, I'm still kind of mad. I mean, I shouldn't be putting up with this, I shouldn't *have* to. Oh well. Life sucks :) But it's not so bad at the same time. Otherwise, I've been fighting with mom and Ric constantly. Bleh. Bye =)
Thursday, 5-14-98
Well, life is alright I suppose. I'm still sick (go figure right?) and I have a migraine right now (just little details) and I'm not sure what I want in my life in the least. *Sigh* Everything is suddenly so confusing. Then again, I guess it's always kind of been that way. I hate not being able to write what I want in here. No, I am not saying this is because of any one certain person, or certain group of people, I'm just saying that I don't feel like I can write how I feel. Maybe someday soon I will figure out what it is, that will make me truly happy.. I sure hope so.
Nothing major has been going on around here. I've been stuck at home for the most part, two days ago, I went to Jenny's house for awhile, yesterday I started my stained glass class, which I have to admit, Jenny and I had an awesome time =) (despite the fact that we both managed to cut ourselves on the glass) We're almost done making our first projects, it's pretty neat. We don't go again until next Wednesday. (Today is Thursday) Oh, Lacy went into the vet's last Thursday, and she got spayed *and* declawed, so they kept her there until Saturday morning. She's so miserable. I don't believe in getting her declawed but mom refused to have it any other way =/ My poor baby. I felt so bad leaving here there so long..
Other than that, a special happy birthday to Chris (Xer) today, I adore that guy =) Except I'm still mad that he's two months and two days older than me *kawf* not fair. =/ I'll live I'm sure. I think I should get some
sleep.. it's 3:39 am, and I haven't slept at all.. And I only had 3 hours of sleep yesterday *yawn* So bed time it is.. Bye!
Saturday, 5-16-98
Hrm, what to say. I'm so confused. So many things I'd love to write about. I've been doing a lot of thinking about Chris lately. I don't know honestly, what I want at this point. I mean I've spent a lot of time looking at the past of our relationship. So much was so messed up, and when was I happy? For a few moments here and there? Is that right? I don't know. I mean, I'm sure Chris will hear about this, thanks to me putting it on my page, since he hears about everything else that's on it. So I guess I shouldn't be writing about it. But damnit! =) I need to talk to him, and I know that, but how? How do I tell him I don't know how I feel anymore? *Sighs* Night.
Wednesday, 5-27-98
Life is going alright. My mother got married yesterday, probably the most exciting thing. Was a very small wedding, but it worked out nicely. I was the maid of honor, Point (Don, the husband's best friend) was the best man. Ryan walked down our 'aisle' as well, and Ric and Shawn both walked mom down it. Us 4 kids stood behind her and Don (my moms new husband), while Point stood next to them and gave them the rings. I made the wedding cake, and my attempt turned out decent I think. I'll put pictures on-line of the cake and from the wedding as soon as possible. If they aren't too terrible that is ;) Linda (Don, the husband's sister) and Ryan (Don the husband's son) came into town, along with Point. Don (our homeless friend) came to the wedding. So did my friend Jennifer Lightner, andJessi Schendel, Jerry
Clay (mom's ex-boss), Danielle Alicia, and Brittany (my girls and their mother),
Danielle's date/boyfriend?, Mom's boss and a couple of people from work, and of
course my brothers. I think that's all. It was a small wedding. It was nice
though. Mom and Don (the husband) left for a night on motorcycle. I went out
for awhile last night, and today I had my stained glass class again. I have all
the pieces cut out and foiled for my next project. Now I need to sauter, woi =)
Other than that I've just been hanging around. Life's fairly boring, go out
with friends sometimes, more of the usual. Things with Chris are the same.. I
told him I need time away. So..
Friday, 5-29-98
I slept most of yesterday. I don't think I woke up
until about 5:00 pm ;) Woke up when Erin called me. She wanted me to go to
Butte with her, but I told her no. Then I called Jennifer and she told me that
Nick Edgerly got stabbed!#!#@ I guess he was at school yesterday and he got
into a fight with some guy named Shawn Vila or something, and the kid pulled a
knife on him, and stabbed him 3 times (so the rumors say). Supposedly he got
stabbed once in the neck and twice in the stomach. Last I heard he was doing
okay, and in the hospital =/ Anyhow, while I was talking to Jennifer, Jill
called, to tell me about Nick as well. I also talked to Justin Kopp!^#! Woi, he
rocks. But anyhow, I really did nothing. Talked on the phone mainly. Chris
called, I talked to him and his friend there (Jason I think) which was neat. I
talked to Jon2 and xerion.. lemme see.. Nothing of importance. It's only like 5
am today, and I haven't slept yet (which I'm doing in a few here) so nothing to
write about today. Main thing that happened was Nick. I can't believe he got
stabbed.. Things like that are unheard of here. Of course it's unheard of other
places and shootings and what not still happen.. So I guess it happens. Oh,
and Ryan and Linda left this morning.. Ryan is coming back for the summer I
believe.
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