Forever

I'm lost in an illusion
full of love and hope
Trying to free myself
discovering lust and betrayal
What's the truth? What's a lie?

Everything's blurry
shapes and colors flying by
Emotions are flowing
feeling so real, so painful
How can I escape this madness?

Lost, confused, I'm losing my mind
I'm running out of time
Everything I believe to hold dear
slips from my grasp
I feel myself falling

It's a big vast darkness
make it stop!
So dizzy, so scared, so alone...
and still falling
Will it ever stop?

I realize there's no bottom
no strength left to fight
My destiny is to live forever
falling forever to my death
Death, a peace that will never reach me

Just make it stop
give me my peace
No energy left...
just weakness and pain
Forever.

by Paige Lynn Mandera - 5/28/98

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